hit me baby one more time...

well for all you who know me and know me well... or saw my new car before i left.or drove behind me or has seen me park at school will noticed my back end and how it has a dent in it... well i got the car this way bc i had to get a new car in two weeks annnndd it was a hella good price. well then i woke up one day and went to my car.. and there is a dent on my right side :( once again another dent.. well today i had class but then had to go to this little thing on what not to do with your money, well it was for one of my loans soo i had about 45 mins to kill, so my friend and i (yeni) and this dude that likes her get in to my car and we head off for in and out.. yummy.. but then me being the dumb dumb i am miss the turn. now what most of you might think is that i ran into some one oo no no no this was not my fault this time!!!! so this guy jason was like oo this place looks good.. and i was like uhhhh we only have like 15 mins to eat or so.. and he was like yeah i know but whatever i didn't care at this point he had already made fun of my car..ass...arg anyways so yeah he swings the door open and SLAMS IN TO THE OTHER CAR!... the other cars alarm goes off i am welll awesssommmeee all i need is to have some ass come out and yell at me for something someone else did...arg so i tell him shut the F***ing DOOR! argg. i was so pissed at him bleh so then i am like forget this i am going back to the school they can kiss my butt whatever and yeah so then he was like ooo lets talk about this.. uh no i don't what to, i don't want to talk to you ever again.. then he was like talking down to me like oooo well becasue i am 105 years old i know way more then you, fuck you don't talk down to me your the one who is still going to college argg then he was like well you know i am not really sorry..WTF! not sorry! oooooooo then i got out of my car and hadn't spoken with him lol which i won't see him till thursday... arg.. other then that i just got a new computer YAY!! for a really nice price yay! well i am going to go work out! yess trying to get my ass back in to shape! woo hooo love you alll please come see my place... :) *hugs*

sex sex sex...

well a few nights ago all my room mates were having sex! lol in my room in my bathroom everywhere.. well not really everywhere but still :( and i have no boyfriend not even some on to sunggle with...sniff sniff ah whatever , the guys are brooks seem to be assholes or gay! wonderful!!!! haha o well maybe i just need me time...i don't know but i know i do need guy friends bc i miss my friends back home a lot *sniff sniff* hehe so yeah its a freakin friday night and i am sitting here on the net doing nothing i think i am going to go try to find something to do.. maybe i should go to the local wal-mart and sit outside with a sign thats will say "guys wanted guys need" or something like that lol i need more friends!!! arg! o wellllllllllllllllllllll i think i am going to go 0ut now try to find some trouble to get in to hehe if anyones wants to come and hang out PLEASE COME DOWN AND SEE ME! hehehe love ya guys! *hugs*

new town new place

well here i am in oxnard ca... yes about 20 mins south of ventura hour south of SB... i love my school its great i know i am going to do well here. i was really home sick for like a week but today i am not at all, my room mates are warming up which is nice, like my room mate in my room is so cool, she is an NY chick so freakin funny i laugh my ass of when she is around. the other two girls are pretty cool and my friends who live about a block down are pretty neat as well, but i NEED GUYS! i am going freakin crazy! you don't evvvennn know i really should just work really hard in school and work and stuff.. but ahh haha o well atleast i make sure i come to class everyday :D... yeah so i don't know eh whatever if it happends it happends i am here for school thats it p.s come and vist me i would love you forever!!!!... hehe

um..stop following me please

this is how my day started out, i was driving to see a friend who needed me.. (sorry again i couldn't make it) and on the phone with another friend, so i was like la de da life is grand.. then this car in front of me keeps moving all over the place pulling off the road then pulling back on fast and the guy keeps turning around and looking at me.. i am like this guy is weird.. f-this i am taking a different way.. So i pull on the the first side street i can (which happens to be very near my fathers house) so i am like *sigh*...dun dun dunnn in my mirror i see this car reverse and pull down the street i am, so i am driving like crazy..In a HUGE circle mind you going like 60mph.. Although my car can't go that fast i was flying down streets, i had no clue who this person was i was shaking SO much i have never been like this before i was freakin out LOL..Yes me! hahhaa then i call my brothers gf and tell her to have my brother come outside bc this guy was following me and i was freakin out so i pull down my road.. And he stops following me, i pull over and i am like shaking sooo hard like every part of my body...ah.. then ryan my good ol buddy calls me i answer and i am like what do you want, i really didn't want to talk but then my friend josh gets on the phone and is like "whitney why where you running from me..." AHHHH! hahhahahaha it was josh the whole time, but i haven't seen him in a year bc he went off to school oomann so i go over to ryans which i right by my dads too and we hang out the three of us.. we go to sushi sho mi!! woo woo lol and then went back to ryans WHO HAS HIS OWN HOUSE! lol and watched movies..from Brazil like home videos..sniff sniff i forgot how much fun i had with this guys...so sad how things change.. but thats life right? haha anyways yeah so we laughed and laughed such good times.. haha we just like talked about the good old times, when we all were so little...5 years ago! gosh i looked like such a dork hahaha yet i was so happy with myself haha ahh man great times i forgot how much i love those guys!!! ahhh i am leaving for college next month...it still doesn't feel real..man o man!!! well thats all for today yeah worked suck butt as always they cheated me $200..arg.. i am speaking with them tomorrow about that bc i want my freakin money!!!!! hahah alright nighty

ooops..

ooops.. yes that was the sound i made after hearing the crunch of another car behind mine..well not really behind kinda next to, yes i got in to my first car accident i was so scary, was nothing big at all but i was shaking because the guy was so mean about it, thankfully dillion was there. To make a long story short, i kinda backed up in to this guys car.. but the weird thing is our cars for like15 mins we attached.... ah well nothing happened to my car and little to his but he was still a be jerky face arg.. :( on a better note i am getting HELLA hours at work.. not sure if thats better but its nice on the pay check we have had two girls leave.. and one got fired lol anyways yeah so i am off to my next day at work!...59 days :D

la de daaa

a few song lyrics that mean a lot to me right now :)

Did you think that I would cry,on the phone?Do you know what it feels like,being alone?I'll find someone new.

One boy, one girl, two hearts, their worldTime goes by, secrets riseOne more, sad song, tears shed, she's goneShe'd take it back, if she only couldAll the perfect words they seem so wrong,She's goneYou wish that you could learn to see,The door is closed and you wish you could beAlone with you, alone with meWhat can I do, I can not breathMy heart is torn, for all to seeAlone with you, alone with me.Best friend, worst thing, she's been, cheatingFriend deceives, she leavesLast date. She cries, whispers, goodbyeShe walks once more, out that doorPlease stay, don't go awayThe hardest thing is letting go of youStay, don't go awayThe hardest thing is letting go of youwhat can I do?Alone with you, alone with me, what can I doI can not see, alone with, alone with...


so yes yesterday was pretty fun, i hung out with becky and steven it was a reallly funny shopping trip lol, they crack me up then i went home to clean more woo hoo fun stuff THEN!!! i went to dinner with dales family haha that was pretty cool, then dale came over to my house and we talked for about an hour then i took him home, and sat alone and watched movies..I WANT TO MOVE, I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS TOWN I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE!!!!!!! 64 DAYS!!!! AHHHHHH....ok i am done

umm yeah!

ok i said nothing about the wedding in my last post, it was wonderful!!! i had so much fun o man i can't wait till i'll be able to visit them like once a month haha..:) really i laughed SO much i can't say that enough :) i have had a lot on my mind these last few weeks..and well duh i have every right to.. i have been trying to find out what i REALLY want in a guy i mean i cared for jon tons..but really not for me i remember i had a list..yes i know dumb haha but i told myself any guy i dated would have to meet every requirement on this list..well that didn't happen and i was hurt from it..so i found the list..silly how things work and i just feel that i am leaving for college i can start over new like, like the way i want to be and not change for anyone :) just to be me and love myself for that i already feel blessed in many ways..i know i will have tons of fun in Ventura HEY I ALREADY HAVE A FRIEND! :) annnddrrewww hahahaha which is another blessing, i mean nah i don't want to explain it again anyways my alissa left today.. i am sad now but i know she is going to have TONS of fun and i love her tons.. i am going to miss having her like two mins away...ahhhh annndd i am going to miss dale and dillion TONS! you guys mean so much to me! what would i do with out you guys really thanks for always listing to me....and dale food 4 less was a blast :) how much i needed you guys and you have been there for me.. and cameron tooo my cuz how i love you!!! :D hehe kat too you are dating another guy that i have met before you hahahha weird..i think you'll marry some one and i will be like..hey how do i know you?..oOOooo thats right ;) hahaha love my friends tons!!!!